Do I Have to Come Up With a Title, too?

I spent the morning at the doctor. Twizzler is on his 4th documented case of strep this year, and the doctors will not even refer him to an ENT until he has had at least 5 cases. One of his rounds of antibiotics was not “documented” as a real case. A month ago I would have begged them to send him to the ENT. And once at the ENT, I would have begged the doctor to take his tonsils out. This is a recurring problem. Not only does he have strep several times a year, but now his tonsils get inflamed and irritated every time he gets sick. The poor kid has missed weeks of school this year!

But now, I am praying that he won’t get another case of strep this year. I don’t know how I’d pay for it. I really don’t want to deal with that right now.

KitKat came along to the doctor’s office with us, too, with some of the same symptoms. Last Friday, her tonsils were so swollen that she could hardly talk. She has been complaining of head and stomach ache all weekend. Her test came back negative and so I drove her to school for the second half of the school day. She has also missed weeks of school this year. When I called her middle school’s attendance office this morning, the secretary recognized her name and said, “Wow. She’s missed a lot of school this year. I think you’d better bring a note from her doctor at this point.”

I didn’t get much sleep last night, and I feel like I’m getting sick. I am down in both body and spirit. I don’t know how long we can manage anymore. I am just really feeling the weight of our start up company and the bills that are piling higher every day. I’m sure this feeling will pass. Most days, I am just fine. Most days, I can just enjoy my family, my comfortable home, and the many blessings that we have, and trust that we will get through our current trial. But I don’t feel that way everyday.

I sat down wih AJ a few minutes ago and picked up a little something to read. This is what I opened up to. I needed these words.

Isaiah 12:

1 And in that day thou shalt say, O Lord, I will praise thee: though thou wast angry with me, thine anger is turned away, and thou comfortedst me.

2 Behold, God is my salvation; I will trust, and not be afraid: for the Lord JEHOVAH is my strength and my song; he also is become my salvation.

3 Therefore with joy shall ye draw water out of the wells of salvation.

4 And in that day shall ye say, Praise the Lord, call upon his name, declare his doings among the people, make mention that his name is exalted.

5 Sing unto the Lord; for he hath done excellent things: this is known in all the earth.

6 Cry out and shout, thou inhabitant of Zion: for great is the Holy One of Israel in the midst of thee.

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I have been blessed and carried through so much trial. I have wonderful friends. I have an incredible family. Our company has amazing potential. But I am stressed. I am weighed down.

I think I might have to boost myself up by hosting another giveaway. What do you think?

Oh! And 5 out of the 7 of us got hair cuts yesterday! It was pretty wild. Necco now has shoulder-length hair, and Reese’s hair is to her chin. Reese’s bangs are now the same length as the rest of her hair. I think I’ll save those pictures for Wednesday….because I know you all want to see them!

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Lolli has written 3740 post in this blog.

I became a mom in 1996, and in 2005 I had my fifth. Yes, 5 kids. In 2007, this blog was born (my 6th baby that will never grow up) and I've been sharing recipes, photography tricks, parenting tips, and everything in between. (Formerly Better in Bulk)

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